When people committed suicide, it's so easy to comment about how wasted their lives were... How people will be sad over their deaths.
Now I understood.
Suicidal thoughts were derived from the expected reactions from others after death.
Before the act, no one bothered. No one valued their insignificant lives, no one appreciated when they are alive.
"An eye for an eye"
They wish to make the people around them feel the same misery, they wish to tell them how depressed they were feeling, and these cannot be conveyed through words, but through experiencing the same agony. They wish to know how much they were valued by others, by witnessing what extent of pain others feel. They wish to punish those who didn't bothered by haunting them in every of their nights.
