Yo. Labels: Emotional Female
Yoyo.
LTNP.
Long time no post. LOL.
It's midnight. Not working tomorrow, so i shall play till drop.
But no mood playing. Haix, why did i feel extremely emotional today? Tell me!! Tell me!! Lol.
Sometimes i felt like i'm somebody who is soooooo special, extremely different & ... some sort of weird. But sometimes i find myself common, is the kind of teenager you can find when you're walking on the street, i'm just another person. So who am i? I don't even understand myself. I'm too complicated...
Lol, i contradicted myself again.
Okay, let me introduce myself to you. :)
My name is Tang Jie. T A N G J I E. My father said it was a bad name... and it still is.
Sixteen years old *I just watched a NC16 movie, Quarantine yesterday! My first NC movie!*.
Female *OOOh, is it?* Yes i am.
152cm, to me that 2 cm means a lot, don't round it off.
200kg, believe me, sooner or later.
Black pupil, really black. Small eye with DOUBLE eyelid, sob.
Ugly nose, that's a typical asian.
Normal size mouth, not BIG, serious, even though i eat very fast, it's speed not size!
Likes to eat, i can't survive a day without food, and i have a huge appetite.
Sleep like pig, normally if i have nothing to do, i can sleep for 20 hours.
Have friends, i am SO typical.
No drawing talent. Don't play any instruments. Not good in sports.
Have a little smart genes, i don't know whom i inherited them from.
Don't grow, other than fatter.
No determination, totally lack of that.
Lazy, very... i would rather sit if you were to ask me to stand.
Don't do housechores, don't like to work.
Money-minded but i can be generous, provided if i got the money.
Dislike to go out during New-Year for visitings, count getting hongbaos out.
A critic to everything, likes to comment & butt in to other's business.
Rebellious, i'll have the tendancy to contradict what you say. Hehe, such an irritating person.
Have weird preference. Yup.
Sometimes happy-go-lucky, sometimes very sensitive.
Can be crazy and fun to be with but sometimes i can also get very annoying.
I can also be cold, quiet and distant, poor you if you'd seen this side of me.
I love to dream. Day-dream.
I think a lot, i spent most of my time thinking, otherwise spacing out.
I spent a lot of money... on food.
Love to joke around... with cold jokes. Well, Singapore is too hot.
I love idols. And the list goes on... I'm positively normal. Suddenly felt down by the thought of i'm just another normal human being in this world.
Another talk.
Yesterday had a small talk with KeQi chatting whether am i a person who get satisfied easily or not. Well, she thinks i am. Cause i can be happy if you said we are going to buy sharkfin soup or to go k or whatever, am i?
Haha, i think i'm the same kind of person as her, apart from getting satisfied just because of little things, i am someone who keep pursuing something big. If you ask me what is it, i can tell you honestly that i didn't know either. It's something that i kept on chasing for, i knew it's big and significant, but i just can't figure it out what is it. The feeling is like you're grabbing the sky, when you felt you touched it, you didn't, it's just the air you're grabbing on. It's suffocating me.
Samantha and guys had just went to HK for holidays, i really envied them, it almost became jealous... I really dying for going oversea too! The kind of feelings is i needed it, instead of wanting it, cause i really need to breathe for some fresh air and be in some other places else to really think, really sort out what i really wanted for life, and what am i grabbing on.
If i am crazy enough, i might just dump everything here and runaway with my passport and money *don't worry, i don't have*, as far as i could. Dump off every single bit of sadness, every single bit of worry, but i guess i'll regret sooner of later, just like the impulsive thought of shaving bald, i wanted to do something rash even though i knew i will regret, but i really wanted to try it. People, please pull me back when i wanted to do this.
There's so many things in life that i wanted, some of them i needed to rebirth then i could get it, and thinking of all this is getting on my nerves. Why can't life just comply to what we want? I need some counselling.
Haix, so troubled, but i don't know for what. Today i wrote everything but tomorrow life is going to move on as normal.
Oh life, you're so stubborn.
I felt like i'm drowning, feeling hard to breathe, probably drowning in the darkness, bit by bit, swallowed. I felt helpless, breathless, keep on falling and then--
Hi, nice to meet you. My name is Tang Jie, and whats yours?
Signing Off,
But hey, i felt thankful that i'm a normal teenager today. Haha.
