A long day, though it's an early dismissal. I went to the Temasek Polytechnic's interview, it seems like a extremely long wait in that room, i almost regretted that i didn't brought anything there to kill time. Anyway, i'd endure over it. I waited for around one to two hours, then it was turn. Actually no much to prepare other than the portfolio, i didn't work out enough for the speech, lol, maybe no need. Just get your mindset there right, that should be enough. KeQi very sway, she was the last and only started her interview at around 7 p.m. Labels: Interview.
So tired. My portfolio posters :
www.wretch.cc/album/jeslyn92
Signing Off;
LOL.
Yesterday being informed that i was shortlisted for the DPA interview, in Temasek Poly for the Visual Communication course. Lol, at that time was surprised then followed by a series of mixed feelings lor. I don't know whether i should feel overjoyed or not. Cause is like a sense of fear towards the unknown or uncertain. Applying for DPA was because i wanted to gain experience and know what's the course really about, then be mentally prepared cause they got some courses arranged for you after you being selected. But hor, i really felt unsure, i wonder can i really not regret about my decision ><, though i don't know what i will regret for, but i felt that everything went too smoothly for me now that i'm lazy to make any changes. Labels: Thoughts of maturity.
Bought scrap and sketch boosks, for me to create a portfolio to display, hmmm, inspirations are running in my head. LOL.
Something deeper. Helen, KeQi and me were discussing about the issue on parents on our way back. We were so mature ><. Anyways, some drama plots were getting more and more common in real life and anywhere in our surrounding. I wonder why some of us didn't realised that in the reality, society issues that were often brought into the dramas or storybooks are really occuring at a rapid speed around us. Things like more parents divorcing or separated was one of the common ones. Probably we're too fortunate to notice them.
In this generation, there's already increasing married couples divorcing or pregnant before married. What the. The children who were suffering from lacking of unconditional love from either side of parents or both was more and more common. Though they may appears to seem as ordinary as others who have, however, definitely some parts of them will feel differently as a normal person. They might not know what's the taste of being loved or care. Those things couldn't be taught but only by experiencing it yourself. People may not treat them as different or even discriminate; lol, but they themselves, how will they feel. So, adults, why put your own blood-related children in such state?
Parents either separated or even worst, disregard them, abandon them are mostly unforgivable. Though things always have two sides and no one could judge who was right and who was wrong. But, if you're not able to hold the responsibility of being a child's parent, then you might as well abort them, relieving them from the suffers they're going to face. Aborting them, yes, it's a sin to kill an innocent, but on the other hand, letting them come to this world and let them die or suffer on their own, without playing the role of the parents is as good as killing them, it's just a matter of your hands or the doctor's hands. What the irresponsible parents are doing is differentiate as "Kill them, let them die off in that few seconds" or "Torture them, let them live and suffer in pain for their whole life".
I heard from Helen that one of her friend, her parents disown her. They're so great man! Happy happy married, happy happy give birth to a child, then happy happy walk away, they are happy; heard the mother got herself a boyfriend and let her child be on their own, but the one who hurts the most, was the child. Lol. Somemore, nowadays, most youngsters in this generation as a general, do you think we could do a better job to be a responsible adult than our parents? Laugh your ass out if you dare answer a yes.
Cannot afford to regret, don't give birth. If give birth, then do the best you can for your child. I know people might think that "If they have a choice, they will not do this or that", but you don't have a choice, the child got is it?
Signing Off;
Poor humans, you wasn't even given a choice. ><, Was i too sarcastic? Whatever.
Yo! Here to blog, didn't went to bath immediately cause wanna watch 19 Years old's innocence, whatever the name, is a korean drama; really nice :) Labels: Charmaine Stop Singing.
Haha, today, there's a lot of thoughts being sorted out, no matter how we think positively, it's no use, a small action from the other party could actually clear all your doubts. Lol, you sure don't understand what am i talking about.
Today damn funny lors. Especially cause of Charmaine Tay, haha. Lol, better not to reveal why she was the comedian for today. Haha, seriously funny lar. And also, please congratz JiaEn, cause she finally can prove her gender... but hor, maybe gays also have mensuration?? Who knows. Haha, lol.
Had English oral for prelim today, sian. It's difficult, and to Helen: My english totally sucks! Haha, lol. I think i did badly for this time compared to other times. Cause i suddenly became damn nervous, then i could hear my voice trembling. But luckily i'm facing Mrs Lim, i'm getting used to her as my oral teacher, like fixed one liao lor. Haha, nice singlish used.
I hate mondays, for me is double maths double science day, so sian. I'm getting tired of facing science ><.
Signing Off;
Funny Ch-Xiao Mei-aine.
Came back from sheemin's house, went to her house to do homework. ><> Labels: Think about it please.
Many things happened... time flew so fast that we didn't even realise that it was the second year anniversary for TMC. So sad, two years ago, we're still some crappy students haha, but things really changed. When was the changes made? No one knows... Labels: 070708 event.
I went home alone, walking alone in the night street. People really can become emotional when they were alone. It's a great opportunity to have a night walk, alone or with someone you treat as soulmate, provided it's safe enough. Seriously, i felt that i'm around eighty in my heart. I am so old.
I always think a lot, so much that my brain was almost going to burst because of over-exhausted. No wonder i sleep well, my brain will grab every opportunity to rest. Every second when i stop talking, i will think, or just stare at the blank. The current theme of my thoughts were future. I like to imagine things getting all mess up or think of the negative first before the positive.
I have already come up with a plan for my future, until the day when i die, and a lot of alternatives.
But who will wish that their life was like a routine? A life just to abide to the plan you have constructed. Who will i meet in the future? Who will hold on to me when i was about to fall? If we already knew all this, then whats the purpose of living? Am i going to pursue my dreams? Or am i going to submit to the reality which you can't live without money and fame? Maybe i could pursue my dreams after i had earned enough money, but can i live till then?
People are so contradicting. I hope this world will never become one which prophets had foresee to be, but it will mean that, i'll need to work hard and continue to be so stress about my future. Sometimes, if there were really a world end then it might be good as well, so we can just put down everything and rest well, forever.
That ten minutes journey from her house to mine, i really thought of damn lot of things. Well, maybe we should really think that we're fortunate enough. What if we were born during the war time? We will have no & low life, who will still care about getting a stupid certificate if they can't even confirm that they will live till the next moment. Or if we were born in less developed countries with no clean water or crimes like girls being sold as prostitudes at age of eight or nine. Who will have the energy or make the effort to think when they were being tortured? Is this a miracle? Which brought us to this situation that we thought we're the worst, we need to think about our uncertain future, no willing to be less capable than others.
Signing Off;
My brain is crying for help!
22:19
Finally, 070708 event was settled, we were still pondering where to go, or even whether to organize or not. It's a great day, with a lot of surprises such as the serious-cheap-and-worth lunch bill however the only blemish for that wonderful day was Helen's absent. Things suddenly cropped up for her so she didn't go, but seriously, the whole day we were like... "If helen were here..." and we even drew Helen's soul on the neoprints. Haha. Wish her dad could get well soon.
Signing Off;
Why wait until the apple turn sour then you add sugar, if originally it was sweet enough?
